today I woke up at 4:30 am instead of my normal 4 am set my alarm wrong,
I turned the light on and listened and realized he was gone........ came down stairs turned the lights on sat in quietness.
caught the bus.
came home after work in the morning talked to Robbie till he went to work. locked the door behind him and started to clean the whole house. took all of Adams things and packed them in to bins i am taking it to him this summer,
realized how empty my living room is with out all of his junk in here, cleaned MY ROOM. packed up all the odds and ends he had in there and put them in the basement.
now i realized that Tomorrow it will still be calm and quiet just not the same as the first day i realized i am alone again.
I am OK with being alone till tonight when i came home from work and the house was still and no lights were on and when i walked in no one said good evening, how was your day...... that has been the hardest part of my first day alone.
