Hey folks, Its Sunday today that means bb9 recap on CBS seems it will get pushed back a few mins/hours do to NCAA mens basketball blah!! I am comp

Hey folks,

Its Sunday today that means bb9 recap on CBS seems it will get pushed back a few mins/hours do to NCAA mens basketball blah!!

I am completely atticted

Entry for March 30, 2008

You know It a curred to me this after noon we are all a bunch of prudes in this country, Sex is not love sex should be relaxed and understand that it means nothing We have come along way sents the myth of WAIT till marriage. Thank goodness, However sex for most means something and it seams most thing that if u have sex mabey u fall deeply in love instead of just saying ok all it is a F*ck no strings attached. love is what matters!! not F*cking!!
so lets F*ck LOL

Entry for March 23, 2008

so much has changed....
First off the CDL school was a complete joke, How is anyone supposed to learn to drive A semi in 2 weeks,
I met a really sweet southern gent Named Eric wayne,
All i got out of the deal is a bill for 5200 dollars, And i am not paying IT!!! call all u want to.

flew back to Maryland on the big bus in the sky (southwest)
Moved in to arts place,
got back with donnie, I made a mistake there
Talked all the time to Eric, He was completing the rest of his training with his carrier Usa truckling
Broke up with donnie he has decided he is going to be a star of stage and screen (i.e. starving artist)
Mikey a person I have known for ten years wanted to "reconnect with me" No chance mikey!!
Adam and I are a team again he is moving to md in mid to late may as of today!!

i got a crappy job at staples and still looking for real work to make real money Even though i am flattered I am making more then at least one of the asst mangers as an assoc. It is 4 bucks less an hour then edibles
The management team at staples are really laid back and cool, there are a lot of other assoc that could easily could get ssi for metal maturity issues

Art is carrying dale once again, That is his son who is 32 yo
today is Christan holiday easter I personally could care less but it would be really hard. All I know is staples is closed so it is a day off. No hoopla and no fan far

Entry for April 25, 2007

Ever have one of thoughts moments where you just go "Something might be missing ??"

well that is how life has been going the last few weeks.

My life seems to be coming together, I have Gary(my lover), I have Edible arrangements(my job), I have my freedom(living in the city), I still have art by my side(my best friend). Yet i still feel a little empty. sort of like i need to be doing something that gives back.

I recently Saw a documentary call Paragraph 175 about the times surrounding WWII for gay in Germany. They all had amazing stories to tell and so many i would like to share with all of you.

I also recently read a story on-line about doing what makes u happy will improve your life and cause u to live longer. And to that i say if we all shared our stories then humility would surely be follow by peace on earth.

I try every day to share my gift with everyone with out even stating what it is. Well here on this very public forum of this blog linked to my web page, I am here to state that is am a psychic. I had my friends tell me that i am crazy until i unexpectedly say to them " some one is here from the other side his/her name is" and then for the next how ever long go in to a trans. I have been told that I name there dead pets or other things that only that person that i am connecting with would connect with.

I am glad that u have gotten to the next paragraph so I am not like that crazy bitch on TV wanting 1 dollar a second. No i have never charged any one for one ever i see it as deceitful for ppl to pay me for this carnal knowledge.

I share my gift with a few completely, Most I will have a aunt or mother come through in an elevator. And it is not like i can say to a person i am seeing for the first and only time "grandma Etta loves your new man." the western culture seems to hold u out a weirdo window for that.

Instead I will say to some one "Lovely clothes u have, u seem to be beaming" and what comes out of their mouth next is "My *** bought them for me" there by affirming what Grandma Etta just said.

Lets just get a few things cleared up about psychics. I can not read your "tea leaves" "Palm" I can not see the future and For the last time I am not a phone i can not call them up like heavens long distance line. The spirits choose when and who to come through too.

No there are not sayonease to contact them like in the movies the ppl that DO that shit want your money not to connect Grannie.

All of my life I have had a connection with the other side. I remember when i was young some one came to me in a dream. He wore a train contuctors hat. He smoked a pipe. He spoke with a very thick accent. He told me to tell my mom that she had a poppie in the the garden. I did not do it at first. he came back again the next night this time he looked right at me. With a hand he touched my chest. It left A warm plesent feeling all over my body. The next morning moring I told my mother about the man in the dream just as he asked i gave her the message.

She began to cry. She told me that man had to have been my great gandfather he was a rail road work for 40 years only his alliang health cuased him to retire and that he died a few years later about 10 years before i was born. This was some thing that i never forgotten. Greatgranpa perry never came to me agian but I am sure that it was becuse of him that I am able to expirance this gift today.

Entry for February 04, 2007

howdy People,

well me and Gary moved in 2 our new place 2 weeks ago.

And 2 day is our 6 month anniversary. wow i fell truly blessed. The connection that we share is far deeper then i could have ever hoped. And yes we both Love football, food, and video games. his one downside is that he is basically in capable of saying no and with that said he is at work on his day off on our anniversary and on SUPER BOWL Sunday.

Well besides that basically nothing much like going on in my life i start a new job on Monday (tomorrow). Gary is still at said chocolate company and we are saving for stuff like a new bedroom set and maybe a trip some where nice for the summer .

well u know how to reach me (Around)

peace out ,

Sky w.

Entry for December 30, 2006 I am changing!!

In the face of a sea of change i look at my life in a mirror and i look like a fool. O well it sure has a been one hell of a time and i am would not have done any thing different. Now i am heading in a new direction and a new path.

As i sit here on the verge of 30 with 30 million miles behind me. Wow I been to sea and the gulf I lived though the death of a lover, Of a best friend, I dealt with coming out And 10 failed relationships. Many friends and family turning there back on me and i was left in the street on Christmas eve (no not this one) . And i Have survived!!! I survived to carry on what other were unable to. To love it all and take it all in stride.

To Gary (and all the true romantics out there) love is all we got one love. when we wake up in the morning when we fall asleep at night no that no matter what happened in your lives before we met it does not matter now because for our love is the only one that I hold dear.

Entry for December 21, 2006 happy solstice

there comes a time when we look at the past and ask our selves where has it gone.

A very dear friend turned 30 today. Wow i new him when he was 21. 9 years of of pain and love and life lived. getting up and going to a peace of shit job having a lover that lied and having bled for the right to say he was gay. the road is a long one and more then a few times friends around (me included) thought we would never see this day. No longer the student now the teacher u look back on the past and see your transgressions (as art likes to say).

In an information age where ever things moves at blazing speed i find it very hard to stop and smell the roses!! Time to be alone is not possable with cell phones and gps tracking. with made to order camera that fit on your finger tip. when the government see to it more important to spy on gay citizens then tracking ones that can kill there kids. And lay wait to a world of broken dreams.

It is said u can not buy happiness. No i suppose not but making good money does make me happy, and the ones are happy around me happy too. The reason we are not happy because we are forced to make scarifies between a house and car, there by requiring sycophantic drugs giving us a faults sens of drug induced happiness.

Change is good. but when to much change happens it can destroy ones house of cards. Been more then a year that i been in this neither world and yet i am just realizing how much the words do to me "eye of the storm", "hurricane forcast". When the wind picks up remembering the fear of getting blown away. let my car go just could not see it and not thinking of the day that my house of cards fell and my life started over.

He snores, he is a game show nut, he loves so deep, He is complete selfless and he has a twinkle that will lite up the entire room. His smile is infectious. His laugh comes from deep with in beneath the pain of a loneliness. he is mine, he is his own again. But god what a high price i have paid and god how much he lost out on. Life begins and love is enduring during the counting days towards the merging of 2 lives.

Entry for August 19, 2006 Regret

There are times in life u wish your could take back an action,take back words that hurt the ones u love. Today i am left with much regret, Alot of pain i have besotwed on some one i love very much, for that i am truely sorry from the bottom of my heart.

I do not know what the future will hold and I can not pretict if this is a date that will haunt me for 20, 30 40 , 50 years. I am how ever forever going to change my actions and I am going to begin speakin the truth and no more lies, for i do not want any more regret in this life.

It is eating at me something that is going to the core of a being. It is a feeling i know very little of. It as if i want to scream untill i go deaf, i go horse and I go to my demize.

I am sorry for theAnger that is still welling up in side,

for the knife u surely must feel i stuck in your side.

I am very apologetic of the respect i have just lost and forthe pain that will surely remain.

For you are my one true best friend and from that i can never hid

I hope that one day (even if it is 40 years from now) u can accept my apologies.

And we can move forward Together.................................

Entry for August 17, 2006 facts on gay youth in america

this is a repost of new data just relased from landa legal

Original artical at http://www.lambdalegal.org/cgi-bin/iowa/news/resources.html?record=1662

Maybe you didn't realize this, but GAY & LESBIAN YOUTH ARE NOT A SMALL GROUP. Estimates suggest 2.7 million Americans between the ages of 14 and 27 define themselves as "something other than straight." (source: U.S. Census, Osmosis MediaLab, YGA Survey)

LGBTQ Youth Risk Data

Fostering Transitions: CWLA/Lambda Legal Joint Initiative to Support Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, Transgender, and Questioning (LGBTQ) Youth and Adults Involved with the Child Welfare System

To download this page as a PDF, click here.

25-40% of youth who become homeless each year are LGBT.
(Kruks G, Journal of Adolescent Health.)

50% of homeless youth identify as LGBTQ.
(Mallon, G, We Don’t Exactly Get the Welcome Wagon: The Experiences of Gay and Lesbian Adolescents in the Child Welfare Systems.)

26% of gay youth are forced to leave home because of conflicts with family members over sexual orientation.
(Rhode Island Task Force on Gay, Lesbian, Bisexual and Transgender Youth.)

23% of GLB youth have been threatened with a weapon at school. 52% feel sad and hopeless. 48% have seriously considered suicide. 29% have attempted suicide. GLB youth are two-to-three times more likely to get pregnant or get someone pregnant than heterosexual youth.
(U.S. Centers for Disease Control and Prevention.)

30% of all completed adolescent suicides in the U.S. are by LGBT youth.
(U.S. Department of Health and Human Services.)

28% of LGBT youth drop out of school because of verbal or physical harassment by other students.
(Savin-Williams, RC, Journal of Consulting Clinical Psychology.

78% of youth report that young people who are gay or thought to be gay are teased or bullied in their schools and communities. 93% hear other youth at school or in their neighborhood use words like "fag," "homo," "dyke," "queer," or "gay" at least once in a while, with 51% hearing them every day.
(National Mental Health Association.)

50% of gay males report negative reactions from their parents when they disclosed their sexual orientation and 26% were forced to leave home as a result of disclosing their sexual orientation to their parents.
(U.S. Department of Health and Human Services.)

33% of gay men and 34% of lesbians report suffering physical violence from family members as a result of their sexual orientation.
(Philadelphia Lesbian and Gay Task Force.)

50% of transgendered youth trade sex for money or a place to live.
(Massachusetts Department of Public Health.)

30% of young, black gay men in America are infected with HIV disease.
(U.S. Centers for Disease Control and Prevention.)

LGBT youth are twice as likely as heterosexual youth to abuse alcohol, and eight times as likely to use cocaine/crack.
(Garofalo, R, MD, et al, The American Association of Pediatrics.)

LGBT homeless youth are physically or sexually victimized on average by seven more people than heterosexual homeless youth; leave home an average of 12 times compared to seven times for heterosexual homeless youth; had nearly twice as many sexual partners in their lives than did heterosexual homeless youth; and used 11 of 12 substances more frequently during the previous six months.
(University of Washington.)

We still have a ways to go to find complete acceptance with numbers like these

The following have adopted policies against discrimination based on sexual orientation:

The American Psychiatric Association (APA)
The American Psychological Association (APA)
The National Association of Social Workers (NASW)
The American Medical Association (AMA)
The American Academy of Pediatrics (AAP)
The American Counseling Association (ACA)
The American School Health Association (ASHA)
The Child Welfare League of America (CWLA)

The following have issued statements condemning attempts by child welfare and mental health professionals to alter a person’s sexual orientation or gender identity through so called reparative or conversion therapies:

The American Psychiatric Association (APA)
The American Psychological Association (APA)
The National Association of Social Workers (NASW)
The American Counseling Association (ACA)

For more information about the CWLA/Lambda Legal LGBTQ Joint Initiative, please contact:

Rob Woronoff, MS
LGBTQ Program Manager, CWLA
202-662-4292
rworonoff@cwla.org

Rudy Estrada
Foster Care Attorney, Lambda Legal
312-663-4413
restrada@lambdalegal.org

Entry for August 13, 2006 what is it about blogging

ok check this out ppl i am sharin a computer that means that when i think of some thing to say it is ither 3 am and i am shit faced or i am 2nd inline to use the computer.

me and will split on the weekend before 4th of july on the 3rd to be spasific. I then started activly lookin to move to Winston Salm, NC with james

Ok james why on earthand in the havenly stars would u tell some one u love them, want to move back together and start a new life with that person, the like be gone from the faceof the planet for 11 fuckin days. that is not how i treat my friends and never my lovers. It is not c razy to call some one and say "hey how u doing ?? I am alive and well and any other ppl reading this that have done the same. if u have not called or e-mailed srcrew u all, friendship takes a few mins a. Day deal with that and the rewards are endless and can not be bought (gary orr)"

so now that being said what elsa is going on. My god have the spirts been comin and coming through. i feel like john edwards on crystal meth!!!

I have been dating the most coolest and down to earth guy i have ever met some one that really so much like me. I am completely done dating some one that is different, thanx oprah for that advice.LOL and he is open very to the possablity of moving to the west coast. Veagas baby, Vegas!!!

I want a good job that is family friendly and that has a place for my crazy ass LOL!!!

So is any one going to get the game of the year madden 2007!!!!!! for ps2??

peace out

sky w.