Entry for June 26, 2006 boredem setting in

ok so i am sitting here on a monday night at like 11 pm and i am feeling a RANGE of emotions like

• let down (cuz the guy i am/was seeing Will cheated on me with his bestfriend and thought it was no big deal)

• sad that in nearly 28 years of life i have but 2 very close friends

• lonely Cuz for 3 months now i wanted to see james and he still has not got settled in nc

• pain in my knees and back cuz of the mountains and mountains of rain.

• piss off that my work is like hott and cold either working 60 hours or they do not call me to work for a week!!

• pissed off cuz i need want and have to have my drivers licence. Why the fuck is the florida DMV so fuckin stupid.

• And finallyemotional starved for a mans touchbut nooooooo will (see above) is "sick" and does not feel like comein over

so that is how i feel...........

Peace out,

sky w.

Entry for June 24, 2006

new pictures added to my website both baltimore and capital pride are now on in the photo album section http://www.skykid2.com/photo-albums.htmlAlso plenty of pictures of other shit is there 2.!!!
peace out,
sky w.

Entry for June 13, 2006 my tails of pride

hey ppl,

i freekin loved capital pride 2006 u can see all the pics i took at my website click here.

I got to meet derek from derek and roamaine on sirius and I got to meet Thelma houston!!

I am going to be in bmore for pride this weekend here is website baltimore pride 2006

A huge thanx to my b/f will for going with me to dc and providing me with food money and transportation!!

peace out,

sky w.

Entry for June 10, 2006 Happy pride!!!

well it is pride time. Tomorrow I am going to dc pride with will and art and shawn and joe and hopping to meet some one new there an online friend chi. i love this time of the year i love pride. Ilove the festival with all the great head lineacts and the in your face gayness of it all.

Unfortunatly we are not going to tonights parade but it does not start till 6:30pm and it sucked last time it was at night cuz it was to dark to see the whole thing by the time it was over i was tired of standing in the same place for 4 hours. and did not really feel like going to the club and besides that it was like like 1o ish at night. I am so lookin fwd to seeing my fav sirius radio personalities derek and romain. I f*ing love them!!

This year we are bringing a cast of new ppl to pride they have never been before. will is 19 and i was just before my 19th bday when i went to my first in boston... joe is still comin out as is shawn!!

Hey how is going to be at bmore pride next weekend would love to see more ppl there this year then in 2004 when i think there was like 5 ppl there infront of hippo!!

well i will post in the week to tell u all how it went!!

peace out

Entry for June 03, 2006

What does friend ship mean to u??

Well in my life I have but a few real true friends.......

friendship means to me waking up in the morning and say thank god I am luck to have some one that cares about my health, my life, my pain, I have some one to care for, some one I can give advice to some one to love and some one that in 5 years u can say remember when and they go yeah man yeah.

Experience is some thing that I have a lot of I have lived in 14 states and had what feels like a million jobs. And I have had to many times kissed toads to hope that they might them princes or princesses (fem guys)

In my experiences I have learned many things that I like and a lot of things I have dislike about my self. I am always in constant change don't blame me for that. I raised my self form 14 yo. With an alcoholic mother and a non execitant father figure. I am just now approaching a milestone of 30 that I am content living in my shell. I am a man that is my best friend and my will. My angel!!

Sometimes I take ppl at there word that is not the way it should be. We should all investigate and explore what some one is saying instead.

When I was 25 I was a quart of a man and now looking toward 30 I am still not quiet half a man I want to be. I have become more emotional but I still lack compassion that is a product of my own environment.

Compassion is friendship

Entry for July 01, 2006 happy 4th to all

well,

art shaved his head seee!! wow bald is beautiful hehehe, I need to get a few things off my cheast and sents this is my soap box i AM going to.

Yesterday at 5pm I got my drivers license back. I can now drive legaly again. (not that i have not drivin just about any thing on wheels in the last 9 months with out it)

Ok so now i need to get a car or my car back on the road and change my license by my birthday when it expires!!! why the fuck is it that it always seems to come back togther at the last possable second.

And i guessmeans I will be sitting here in Md for my birthday instead of being where i want to be which in Winston-Salem, North Carlolina.

Another Thing.....Why does Will always have to make me feel like a shit when he brakes a date with me or is a no show!!I easyly fall for guys that take control in a Passive/agrassive way!!

Peace out,

Sky w.

Entry for May 20, 2006

When we are alone in my room u show love, compation, respect, and trust.

When did u First relize u where gay?? Was it an inosent crush in junour high school the blond bomb shell with the "big mucles".Do u remember how good it felt when u saw his face, When he said hello to u, when he brushed past you in a crowded hall way.

Remember how innocentit felt, how good. Then why now when we make love to u feel guilty why do u feeldirty.Is it becuse inyourculture the term "man up, boy" hasbeen througn like a A-bomb at you . Is it becuz everone talks bad about gays in your house.

I will be there to hold your hand I will be there to walk this tight rope with you.

To the ppl reading this messagewe all must cometo terms withour sexuality and tell some one that is st8.Studies show that a str8 person that now a gay person, at work, at church or ineven a there family will be lest likely to discrimate And more likey to support "human rights for gays". Comming out for me happend in 1993 long before there was much of a support system i do not remeber ever hearing of PFLAG or GSA. It is never to old or to young to come to terms with your sexuality and be proud of what the high power has made you.

Untill next time america........

Entry for April 04, 2006

I just got done watching Elphant. A fition based on Columbine High School "massacre". the feelings that led to Columbine have never been address by the main streamUS press.

There was 10,000 warning signs. these kids were picked on all the time, ever day going to school with a larger chip on there shoulder, with no mouth peice, no out let for these emotions.

I have been abused by my class mates.I am a surviver of bulling from a very young age. It has been years sents i have been in school. comming up on 10 years next year. The pain and the torment still survive with in me. the wanting some to not just brush it off as "kids will be kids" the mentality of theUS population. It is in no right justified for some one to go in to the school and shoot it up, but we must also never forget why they did it, What that feeling is like. Having 900 classmates and being so alone.

Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold were not only muders they were also vitims of a system that has gay youthdoes not have enough GSA's and that has accepted bullying as "part of growing up?" When will we learn any thing from this it has been nearly 7 years sents and only thing that hs changed is security in school now u are a caged animal. There is current 12 states will legisation that would limit or outright ban Gay-Straight Alliance . That is uneceptable.

If i understand what the legilaters are saying is that u are not gay untill u are 18 And that gay youth can some how change by not talking about sexual orintaion or is it they can not vote so there opinions are not valid.

As a 27 yo out gay male I stand up to though right wing crazy ppl. I call my congress man/woman and i e-mail him/her weekly if not daily on this issue, We as a county must not forget that the scars that are made during school will last for a life time.

Entry for 2/28/06 You never now who you have met

Hello all,

8 years ago in the fall of 1998, I met a man by the name of mad dog, He was a street wise thug from NYC, We became fast friends, and I became his roomate as well as a good friend soon after.He seem to know everone in the south florida area. he got me in to all the clubs ( i was still under 21 at the time). He was soft spoken and very comfortable with him self. he was half portician, half cuban. And gay.

Mad dog had crazy tatoos all over his body, one tat Stood out it to mewas smiley face on his right peckwith the words Elizabeth below it. I had asked him what was the Significancesof it.He said to me "o that is my ex husbans name".

I was completely confussed and was like "What??" hethen explained his lover had decided to go from m to f. (for thoughs of you that do notknow whatthat meansshe was transitioning from manto woman through hormans and evetually surgery.) And that elizabeth was to be comming down for a vist in a few weeks.

A few weeks later I am standing in an airport terminal next to mad dog. he is holding flowers in his hand. And out walks the most butiful woman i have ever seen. she had corse hair tied back and her face was smooth,color of coffee, and she had a very broad chin. I nearly passed out when she and mad dog ran toword each other in the terminal. How could this be I had always seen tranie (a drogatory comment to trans ppl) in the bars look horriable with a 5 o'clock shadow.

she was just stunning. On the car ride from the airport back to the house I was completly charmed and inthrald with her personality and presents. I asked ever question imagineble. Sh answed ever question, with a direct, straight fwd answer.

For a few nights we sat up talking while mad dog was at work. I really begane to see that she was so unique.

She explain to me that she was still able to preform as a man. She was very early in here transition, Her breast where not really showing yet. She told me about her real pation which was the ballroom seen in NYC. http://www.infinitipower.com/ballerina/

She left i thought wow she is really going to be something like a star. Well that is exactly what she became She is has become one of the most seasoned performers in the ballroom sceen.

She is now the mother of the house of latex. You go girl!!

Entry for February 24, 2006

As i am looking at my life i see it through a very small window under the stairs, I watch as pain turns in to triumph that turns to tragedy in an instant. MY heart often worn on my sleeve as a badge of honor sits around my neck next to my freedom rings. What i am looking for and what i need is not that hard to follow not that hard to understand

it is not buried under 10,000 layers of shit and yes there has been pain but i have learned that with out pain there is no love (think child birth). When i leave i want to leave behind more then just a name, but a space to be filled by a new born queen, I want to be remember for hope, passion, saying what ever the fuck u want to say , Iwill be remember for but a few things that i am not sure of yet.

I am political because i am passionate, I am loving cuz i am a lover. I am pain for what its worth.

I see daily struggle and so many that have grown so much around me in the past week that i means that soon i will become yet another queen at the bar not the boy toy not yet the troll,

I have found passion is not dead and chivalry as once said "aint for gays honey" Pain is not my only rain at the moment is raining men. shaheed as reinvigorated this tired old queen in to a butter cup of LATE 20 SOMETHING.

Mr. Boston as made a return and so has sleeping till 3.