Well this is the weeks of great change in my life , let me first start out by saying, On April 1 st Adam moved out and away (see previous post) then in April it be came apparent that I was not going to be able to pay Aprils rent,Not that big of deal i could have maid a double payment in May.
After a lot of him ming and hawing, I had to make a decision that will forever change the course of my life I decided that the relationship that has lasted THE LONGEST OF MY LIFE, James sawyers and I are getting back together after 10 years, and “so many roads”.
With that decision came logistics and moving times, He is currently in North Carolina and me in Maryland, I decided what I was going to do was wait till after the school year was up, June 11 th , and my settlement came in ( some time in June too). Pay off the rest of the lease and move to North Carolina.
Wanting to express this to then roommate Robbie I sad to him OK look I know that you are busy and I am busy lets take some time and talk about this on may 1 st , A Friday. Well instead he decided to blow me off that day and he waited till 2 days later tell me he was moving out, Effectively killing our 2 year friendship. Of course I am not capable after just getting back to work after that accident to carry all the bills this place generates. So I am left with no choice but to get evicted, move back in with Art till the end of the school year and then move again to North Carolina.
Thus requiring me to spend money on a car now to commute from Columbia to Whitemash . And spend money to move 2 times!!
That is why the title of the post is season of change, with so much change going on around me and with me. I feel sometimes as if I am being punished some how.
Why in just the last 6 months I have had the Adam saga, the Horrible accident, Adam bailing, falling behind on the rent, a friends betrayal, and an impending eviction.
I am not as good at adapting to change as I once loved change all the time, I am old, wiser and not as to be up route my ties to the community or routine.
I was just watching what is likely the end of scrubs show. And I cried like a baby at the end. Cuz I know it will be very hard for me to say goodbye to some of the people I currently work with We spend an average of 70 hours a week together around each other and 4 hours a day we are just shooting the breeze. And trust me you get to know a lot about a person when u spend 20 hours a week “just talking”.
The routine at work is the only thing that has been routine in my life, And I woke up this morning realizing that June 11 th will be here in 4 weeks and 5 days.
After that everything will be changed..........................
