Well,
this has been a humbling and blessed weekend, Friday Jamal "couldn't hang out", went to drinkery with art then Rodney called picked me up from there, we came back here had a good time he left at 6 am then did a day with Beth then went to pic of my best friend Shawn, then Rodney came back over we talked things over and i thought for sure we "made progress" on things, he stayed over again, Sunday morning he left smiling.
Then did the beth thing sunday mid day. then talked to rodney and it was like amethia and alot of " I feel I am leading you on. and me saying well no i don't think u are.
Then I watched one of the best movies of my life "boy culture". It really open my eyes to one thing. Had the greatest conversation with Shawn we have ever had!!!!!!!!!!!!
Cried tears of joy,
Looked at my phone and relized that yeah he is leading me on and he has no right to say one thing and do another!!
Actions speak louder then words!! cuddle kiss caress, make love, sleep together, wake up fave a bunch of pillow talk, call ever day, tell each other ever detail of our days............. and what is left to make this not already a relationship I ask?? I word, Boyfriends!!! you know who you are and u know what it is you feel then do not be shy, do not regret cuz for but one moment in time we have to get it right. and it has passed
Talk to Jamal today he is still on for the road trip, were we share a bed. He will be over this weekend. he is probable not "the one". trust is going to be theeeeeee issuse.
A change that can only be seen after it is all over.
love yall,
sky w.
