Entry for June 28, 2006 what is trust

Hey all,

For thoughts of you who know me no that trust is a huge issue for me. I do not trust easily, there are maybe 3 ppl I trust in my life.

For the most part I take whatever any one says "with a grain of salt". Not really believing what they are saying is the WHOLE TRUTH.

A situation complicated by my willingness to fall for less then reputable ppl, and the willingness of thoughts ppl to cheat, lie and steal from me, to get what they want.

The trust I long for is the trust I share with Art.The feeling of whatever,whenever, and however he can bethere for me he will do his damndest to and likewise me for him.Now Iknow thathas not happened over night.It maybehappened with in a few months.

Which leads me to my next point coming up on a 5 months of friendship and I know that I can basically know that if u say u are going to do something means u are not, If u say something it means it maybe 70% true, well then it is time for you to get the hell out of my life. Because with friends like that I need no enemies’.

And in conclusion follow through is what builds and what essentially is trust...

No follow through= no trust.

Entry for June 26, 2006 boredem setting in

ok so i am sitting here on a monday night at like 11 pm and i am feeling a RANGE of emotions like

• let down (cuz the guy i am/was seeing Will cheated on me with his bestfriend and thought it was no big deal)

• sad that in nearly 28 years of life i have but 2 very close friends

• lonely Cuz for 3 months now i wanted to see james and he still has not got settled in nc

• pain in my knees and back cuz of the mountains and mountains of rain.

• piss off that my work is like hott and cold either working 60 hours or they do not call me to work for a week!!

• pissed off cuz i need want and have to have my drivers licence. Why the fuck is the florida DMV so fuckin stupid.

• And finallyemotional starved for a mans touchbut nooooooo will (see above) is "sick" and does not feel like comein over

so that is how i feel...........

Peace out,

sky w.

Entry for June 24, 2006

new pictures added to my website both baltimore and capital pride are now on in the photo album section http://www.skykid2.com/photo-albums.htmlAlso plenty of pictures of other shit is there 2.!!!
peace out,
sky w.

Entry for June 13, 2006 my tails of pride

hey ppl,

i freekin loved capital pride 2006 u can see all the pics i took at my website click here.

I got to meet derek from derek and roamaine on sirius and I got to meet Thelma houston!!

I am going to be in bmore for pride this weekend here is website baltimore pride 2006

A huge thanx to my b/f will for going with me to dc and providing me with food money and transportation!!

peace out,

sky w.

Entry for June 10, 2006 Happy pride!!!

well it is pride time. Tomorrow I am going to dc pride with will and art and shawn and joe and hopping to meet some one new there an online friend chi. i love this time of the year i love pride. Ilove the festival with all the great head lineacts and the in your face gayness of it all.

Unfortunatly we are not going to tonights parade but it does not start till 6:30pm and it sucked last time it was at night cuz it was to dark to see the whole thing by the time it was over i was tired of standing in the same place for 4 hours. and did not really feel like going to the club and besides that it was like like 1o ish at night. I am so lookin fwd to seeing my fav sirius radio personalities derek and romain. I f*ing love them!!

This year we are bringing a cast of new ppl to pride they have never been before. will is 19 and i was just before my 19th bday when i went to my first in boston... joe is still comin out as is shawn!!

Hey how is going to be at bmore pride next weekend would love to see more ppl there this year then in 2004 when i think there was like 5 ppl there infront of hippo!!

well i will post in the week to tell u all how it went!!

peace out

Entry for June 03, 2006

What does friend ship mean to u??

Well in my life I have but a few real true friends.......

friendship means to me waking up in the morning and say thank god I am luck to have some one that cares about my health, my life, my pain, I have some one to care for, some one I can give advice to some one to love and some one that in 5 years u can say remember when and they go yeah man yeah.

Experience is some thing that I have a lot of I have lived in 14 states and had what feels like a million jobs. And I have had to many times kissed toads to hope that they might them princes or princesses (fem guys)

In my experiences I have learned many things that I like and a lot of things I have dislike about my self. I am always in constant change don't blame me for that. I raised my self form 14 yo. With an alcoholic mother and a non execitant father figure. I am just now approaching a milestone of 30 that I am content living in my shell. I am a man that is my best friend and my will. My angel!!

Sometimes I take ppl at there word that is not the way it should be. We should all investigate and explore what some one is saying instead.

When I was 25 I was a quart of a man and now looking toward 30 I am still not quiet half a man I want to be. I have become more emotional but I still lack compassion that is a product of my own environment.

Compassion is friendship

Entry for July 01, 2006 happy 4th to all

well,

art shaved his head seee!! wow bald is beautiful hehehe, I need to get a few things off my cheast and sents this is my soap box i AM going to.

Yesterday at 5pm I got my drivers license back. I can now drive legaly again. (not that i have not drivin just about any thing on wheels in the last 9 months with out it)

Ok so now i need to get a car or my car back on the road and change my license by my birthday when it expires!!! why the fuck is it that it always seems to come back togther at the last possable second.

And i guessmeans I will be sitting here in Md for my birthday instead of being where i want to be which in Winston-Salem, North Carlolina.

Another Thing.....Why does Will always have to make me feel like a shit when he brakes a date with me or is a no show!!I easyly fall for guys that take control in a Passive/agrassive way!!

Peace out,

Sky w.