Entry for December 03, 2005 has it been that long

ok i just realized it had been 2 weeks sent i wrote anything. Ok first i started a job..... i know right i just got to maryland and now have a job.

I am working seasonal (for horrible pay) at borders in Columbia. how the hell am i supposed to push a 60 dollar book when i make less that in a 9 hour shift. what the fucks up with that... the people that work there are pretty cool but also very clicky. Season is when they all get a little testy and i some times feel like they long for the days of spring or fall and it is very slow.

ok well Art is again going in to surgery (see his blog for info). This one is going to be a very large one on the 7th of DEC yes this wednesday.

the real reson I am writing tonight is i am worried about the direction of my life. Tonight i had to walk IN THE SNOW home. frist why should i be walking I have a car(reson below) and 2 why am i out at night(reson below)

the reson i have a car i can not drive is the windshield is fucked up because i spent the money i should have spent on insurance and reg and on getting it fixed on shit like "inner light" Adams bull shit business and rent on a place that was way to expensive. and now i will make enough money.In the entire run of their job (ends Jan 21ish) to get it fixed and back on the road

the other reson is because i am so damn hard headed that i would except day job cuz i do not like waking up at 4 am. so instead i work till 11pm.

so far i have not learned that many lessons from my past

Is thatI am just hard headed or is there something that is going to happen in the next 6 months that i say o yeah that why i been waiting around........ well a hundred ppl asked me what u going to do after January andI have no answers and no direction at all Not any clue at allI want to open a towing company or a light duty company(ie lock outs, jump starts, tire changes) .

I know one thing i can say about the lessons learned in Florida I can be very self sufficient. I hate preferto have some one to lean on and i want some one to lean on me also.

I guess only time will tell ...........